Had a strange dream last night. Dreamt that I was lactating and breastfeeding a 3 or 4 year old child who I’d adopted, or was looking after. He said he didnt like the taste of it coz it was too acidic. Talk about weird.
Been feeling OK-ish. A little off colour but not really sick. Getting plenty of sleep at night now, thankfully. Still getting those lower back cramps that test my pain threshold. Not that they are really bad but it is quite an intense dull ache. But it does go away after a bit so it’s not all bad. Mornings are really disagreeing with me. I find it hard to crawl out of bed for 7am shifts. Dont know whether its a combination of winter and general pregnancy tiredness or what. It seems like Im hungry ALL the time but holding back on my usual fancy of Burger Rings, Twisties, etc limits my snacky foods.. especially as I dont like fruit that much. Every now and then I wonder how long we’ll manage with a baby in a 1 bedroom apartment and if we’ll be able to afford to build our place, or even rent a bigger place. But I think I’m prepared to just wait and see. I do think things happen for a reason and I’m sure we wont be struggling very hard for very long. This weekend is our milestone for telling a few people. Parents, close friends – Bindy, Keda, Monica.
I read the parental leave policy at work and have discovered that it 8 weeks paid and 52 weeks unpaid.. not the 2 years as I originally thought. Bummer. It may not matter that much though as I dontk now what our plans are about working and moving house etc. Thats another wait and see. One thing at a time these days. First thing is just trying to be a healthy incubator for the “magic bean”.
I realise I havent explained where the name Magic Bean came from. Well, given we only “did it” once that month because AF went for something like 3 weeks it really was quite a miraculous event. Especially after having tried unsuccessfully for a year.